Fire in Our Eyes, Flowers in Our Hearts:
Tantric Women Tell Their Stories

Edited by Jennifer Jayanti Fitzgerald & Marcus Bussey

Fire in Our Eyes, Flowers in Our Hearts is a collection of essays by tantric women. The stories told here capture the diversity of women’s spiritual experience exploring the struggles and triumphs of spiritual life. The emphasis of the book is upon feminine spirituality and the ways in which women experience and express their spirituality.

Doubt, confusion, and fear mix with joy, love and commitment on the spiritual path. The stories explore first hand moments of transformation and insight in a way that is down to earth and real. This is not a cosmetic or romantic look at spiritual life but a ‘feet on the ground’ appraisal of what it means to be committed to a spiritual tradition and how the guru-disciple relationship develops over time in unique and unexpected ways.

The book offers a transcultural glimpse into the spiritual lives of women from around the world. Their stories give insight into how culture shapes, directs and defines how we create meaning in our lives. The stories also cover the experiences of women from their twenties to their seventies allowing the reader to appreciate women’s concerns, aspirations and yearnings at all points in their life journey.

The text was originally conceived by Jennifer Jayanti Fitzgerald (1959-2000) who collected these essays. It is as much her story as she struggled with cancer and dealt with questions of meaning, value and what really counts when faced with the end of life. She left us with a snap shot, a glimpse into the lives of spiritually committed women. Be prepared to be touched, confronted, inspired and amused by these stories which always lead back to spiritual reality and the depth of relationships that bind us to the Divine.


Comments about Fire in Our Eyes, Flowers in Our Hearts


Finally! Here is something that gives the remarkable devotion and dedication of our sisters a deserved space!

Dada Shambhushivananda, Kulapati, Gurukula Vice-Chancellor



I started reading the text and could not put it down at all until the end. We all read now about the need for the spiritual dimension in our lives. But this collection of writings brings all of this to the intensely personal level of specific persons on their
own personal spiritual journeys.

This is a book about people in their most inner work of spirituality not mere philosophical nostrums. It is so beautifully written and so intensely personal in their stories.

This collection works so well on many levels.

First, it deals with the potential saviours of our planet- women. We are not talking about the feminists who want to be like men, that is absurd. It is about the Yin, female, Shechinah, female aspect in all of us--men and women alike.

Second, It tells about Tantra. Not about only what it is but how it works in peoples actual lives during all kinds of life situations.

Third, it tells in personal detail both the passion of the "fire" and the elegance and beauty of the "flower" in each of us.

Fire in Our Eyes, Flowers in Our Heart is a really powerful description and witness of how grand ideas work in the lives of real people in their own personal journeys.


Rabbi Moshe Dror, Bet Yatziv Teacher’s College, Beer Shiva, Israel



To reach a point where one learns to embrace one’s difficulties and
find the bliss beneath all the struggle – Didi Ananda Udaya p168

What a marvellous goal! It seems to me to capture both the essence of the book and the answer to living a fulfilling, satisfying and useful life. Every page hits one with this sense of bliss along with the struggles to which the women have applied themselves and over which they have triumphed .

The stories come from a very different tradition from my accustomed place but I recognise the signposts! I am impressed, too, with the willingness of the women to share not only their stories but the inner experiences which are less easy to relate and often less ‘acceptable’ as narration. I have often wondered over the years, what untold riches there are of spiritual experience within the hearts and minds of Christian women that are never spoken or valued by the community and, perhaps, by the women themselves. I applaud these women who rejoice in sharing their inner joys and sorrows. It is wonderful to have current accounts of women’s spiritual journeys and they can be, must be, appreciated as valid and authentic no matter how different they are from ‘mainstream’ religion. I guess over the centuries some of the most ‘shocking’ and authentic women’s spiritual writings have come from groups outside of the recognised and ‘acceptable’ paths.

The book is itself a signpost and one I hope many people have a chance to see. It is inspirational, real, and very touching. I have a particular view (which may have come from a Buddhist women I read years ago, don’t remember) that I recommend to the women with whom I pray, that we do well to remember whenever we meditate or pray that there are people all over the world, dedicated to peace, love, silence, who pray and meditate with devotion in whatever tradition – or none - and that each time we do, we consciously place ourselves within that vast throng. I am moved by the thought that we, through the silence, share with the women who contributed to this book, and those who have gone before them, with whom we still are one.


Josephine Griffiths, Anglican (Episcopal) Theologian, Life Skills Coach and Spiritual Mentor, and author of Reclaiming of Wisdom: the Restoration of the Feminine in Christianity